It's funny how someone could smile.
It's funny how someone could laugh.
It's funny when someone could think.
It's funny how someone could live cos,
I can't do it anymore.
Sometimes, have you ever felt that you just wanna give up on life and just kill yourself. This feeling is bothering me badly. I'm hurt. Deeply. I'm no longer as strong to overcome this feeling anymore. I've tried cutting myself, but after awhile I'm immune to the pain. It's like, the pain that is stuck inside me now seems to be getting worst.
It hurts me so bad that i could just jump down from a building. I can't understand, why am i smiling so much, when I'm actually dying inside. I can't understand why am i laughing so much, when I'm actually mute inside? I can't understand why am i hearing peace, when deep down inside the sound of the war is killing me. I dun understand why am i smelling freedom, when deep down I'm actually smelling Death?
I've once dream. I've once hope. I've once have faith. I've have once determined. But now. I just kept crying. I just kept quiet. I just kept to myself. i just kept giving up. I'm just no longer myself.
Nina Nazliana
