you were my life
you were my dreams
but i guessed,
it's no longer anymore
When i first saw you, I was in love with you. When I first talk to you, I was dying to be with you. When I first get to be with you, I was crazy to live with you. But, I was wrong. When the first time you walked away, I was dying to meet you again. When I first saw you, I was dying to love you again. But when I almost loving you again, you broke my heart.
Have you ever loose someone you love, and when you find them back, you're like, how you've wished you never get there at all? Have you ever cry for someone, that now you feel you've wasted your tears? Have you ever cut yourself, to feel the pain but then you've realize, there was never the pain? Have you ever felt hope, and then realize it will never come true?
Well, not me.
I love you can't you see it?
I care for you, can't you feel it?
I cry for you, can't you touch it?
Guessed you can't.
And never will.
Sometimes in life,
when you think you are right
it's actually wrong.
there's a saying that goes, love others without expecting it in return. but is it really worth it? is it really true? how could someone simply love and not get it in return? how could someone simply care and not getting concern in return? how could someone simply smile, without getting laughter in return? i wonder cause, i can't.
Sometimes, I can never understand what is on my mind.
What is the word i speak, what is the work i do. What is the song i sing. What is the rhythm i hear. What is the joke i laugh. what is tears i cry. what is the problems i fight. And mainly, what is the happiness that i'm finding.
i wonder. and still wonder.
You know it hurts a lot.
Looking at you.
Seeing you.
Reading you.
Thinking of you.
Missing you.
Loving you.
You were a friend. You were my friend. You were someone.
You gave me hope. You gave me dream. You gave me strength.
You listened to me. You watched over me. You took care of me.
But not anymore..
You made me cry. You made me hate myself. You made me silent.
You are giving me pain. You are giving me hurt. You are giving me tears.
Just leave me alone...
Our life is just like a piece of white paper.
We scribble on it.
We draw on it.
We make it colorful.
We made it looked Cool.
We make it important.
Despite all the colors,
We must remember..
We are just a piece of White Paper
Despite the laughter I've seen, Despite the tears I've shed, Despite the words I've used, Despite the life I've been living, I just think, Life is something that I should learn to accept.
I dream too much that I can't see the truth. I hoped too much that I can't see reality. I laugh too much that I can no longer see the sadness in me. I change to much, that I can no longer see the REAL ME.
People come to your life for a reason. But i just think some people just come to your life to make you Happy. To make you Smile. To make you Dream. To make you Laugh. To make you Hope.
And then, they'll be the one who takes everything away from you and fuck up your life. People always say, we must stand back up whenever we fall. But i think, i fell too much that i can no longer stand back up.It hurts to be hurt. It's tiring to always cry. It sucks to always hate.
But isn't hatred what you've made me into?
Every night I cry myself to sleep,
Cause I was hoping you to be there..
But now I know I only have the memories to keep,
Cause you no longer care..
Can't you see I'm crying every night? Can't you see I'm dying inside? Can't you see I'm giving up? Can't you see I'm faking my smile? Can't you see I barely laugh? Can't you see I'm lonely? can't you see?
I need you to show me that you care. I need you to help me. I need you to be there. I need you to show me. I need you to love me. I need you to hear me. Or maybe, I just Needed you to KILL me.
Sometimes i wonder, why do i always helping people? Why do I always try to make people happy? Why do I always make people laugh? Why do I always please them? Why can't I be them? I cared so much that I lied so much.
*The picture that you see,
the picture that you hate,
the picture that you asked me to change,
the picture that you went eee.
Wasn't i smiling?
Oh wait, Maybe i was dying?
That's just the real me..
Nina Nazliana
I just feel that sometimes in life,
we do too many stupid mistakes..
That now, we are clueless,
of the wrong and right..
In life, we have always occupy ourselves with things to do and even things to say. We fill our life with happiness and We share it with laughters. We fill our life with hope and We share it with dreams. We fill our life with love and We share it with care and concern. But is it always enough?
What if, I wanna fill my life with happiness, do I always end up laughing? What if I wanna fill my life with hope, will my dream always come true? And if I wanna fill my life with love, do i even feel it in return? I wonder. Cause, I.Can't.Feel.Any.
We hope to much, we dream too much, that we forgot. That life is unpredictable. If Love is really blind, then will you help me by taking my sight away? Instead of seeing hatred, I could now possibly feel love. Instead of listening to sin, I could now hear peace. Instead of sniffing sadness, I could possibly now smell the aroma of happiness.
It's funny how someone could smile.
It's funny how someone could laugh.
It's funny when someone could think.
It's funny how someone could live cos,
I can't do it anymore.
Sometimes, have you ever felt that you just wanna give up on life and just kill yourself. This feeling is bothering me badly. I'm hurt. Deeply. I'm no longer as strong to overcome this feeling anymore. I've tried cutting myself, but after awhile I'm immune to the pain. It's like, the pain that is stuck inside me now seems to be getting worst.
It hurts me so bad that i could just jump down from a building. I can't understand, why am i smiling so much, when I'm actually dying inside. I can't understand why am i laughing so much, when I'm actually mute inside? I can't understand why am i hearing peace, when deep down inside the sound of the war is killing me. I dun understand why am i smelling freedom, when deep down I'm actually smelling Death?
I've once dream. I've once hope. I've once have faith. I've have once determined. But now. I just kept crying. I just kept quiet. I just kept to myself. i just kept giving up. I'm just no longer myself.
Nina Nazliana
