It's hurtful when too many things kept inside you. The worst is that you don't wanna say it out cause the feeling of wanting to be left alone and becoming a hero trying to solve the problems yourself. - And you know you can't even do it! It sucks. It hurts. But Life still have to move on!
And it seemed yesterday was the day that everything came trembling down. I lost my grandmother. I know, I may not be as close, but her loss seems to be affecting in a way or another. Looking at her and kissing her forehead for a last time kinda hurts me a lot. I pray that her soul will always be at peace.
This makes me realize that life is actually short. Life is full of unexpected things that will just make your life crazy. In one day, you will find your happiness, and in a second, it will just be your worst nightmare. And it make me realize how much i've actually hurt a lot of people in a way or another. Be it I did it in purpose or the other way round. And What if, one day my tomorrow never comes. I'll bet i'll regret and will be swearing at myself. But one thing sure, Life have to keep moving on.
I wanna change. I wanna live. I wanna cry. I wanna laugh. I wanna do things that i have not yet done. I wanna love. I wanna hate. Cause in the end, I wanna repent And I don't wanna die yet.
Nina Nazliana
