Did I hear you right
'cause I thought you said
Let's think it over
You have been my life
And I never planned
Growing old without you
Shadows bleeding through the light
Where the love once shined so bright
Came without a reason
Don't let go on us tonight
Love's not always black and white
Haven't I always loved you?
But when I need you
You're almost here
And I know that's not enough
And when I'm with you
I'm close to tears
'cause your only almost here
I would change the world
If I had a chance
Oh won't you let me
Treat me like a child
Throw your arms around me
Oh please protect me
Bruised and battered by your words
Dazed and shattered now it hurts
Haven't I always loved you?
But when I need you
You're almost here
And I know that's not enough
And when I'm with you
I'm close to tears
'cause you're only almost here
Bruised and battered by your words
Dazed and shattered now it hurts
Haven't I always loved you?
But when I need you
You're almost here
Well I never knew how far behind I'd left you
And when I hold you you're almost here
Well I'm sorry that I took our love for granted
And now I'm with you I'm close to tears
'cause I know I'm almost here
Only almost here,.
It has been three days, that i kept dreaming and thinking of you. Every time i'm alone, I was hoping for you to be with me. hug me when i need someone. Listen to me when i need someone to hear. Slap me when i need someone to shut me up. Love me as i need someone to love.
You bring tears to my eyes each night knowing that you are no longer there. 6 years to know that you are the one. 6 years to know that i love you. 6 years to know we have separate. 6 more years to know we disappeared. I love you. I miss you. I know it is too late now, but maybe i was foolish to take advantage of having you around. looking at the picture, the love letter, the ring, makes me cry and sigh longer.
I'm searching for you, but you are not there. I'm thinking of you but i don't know if you still care. nothing have change, only my heart getting distorted and in pieces. Having you in my dreams were something that i didn't expect. I wasn't expecting. I'm hurt,. cos you are only almost here....
*Don't let me go, i'm still waiting and hoping....
If I would lie awake in the streets
Just waiting for a car to hit me
Could I get your attention for just this time
For just tonight
If I would cry myself to sleep
Would I wake up in a bed of tears with you
Or would you let me drown in my own mistakes
If I leave a note to say I'm sorry
Will that be enough to make you love me
If I tried my best to make you happy
Will you do your best to listen to me
(Hey hey) I'm sorry
If I could just take back what I've done
And tell you I hate the man that I've become
Would you make me a promise
To never let me do this to you again
If I had my way right now
I'd be alone with you right next to me
Speaking softly, telling me that you love me
Since the day I saw your face
I knew you were the one for me
And now you're gone and I'm still here
Waiting for you my dear
If I leave a note to say I'm sorry
Will that be enough to make you love me
If I tried my best to make you happy
Will you do your best to listen to me
(Hey hey)
I'm sorry for the way I ran out on you
I'd apologize but you don't want me to
I don't even mind if you're not listening
I want the world to know I'd give up anything for you(for you)
If I leave a note to say I'm sorry
Will that be enough to make you love me
If I tried my best to make you happy
Will you do your best to listen to me
(Hey hey)
If I leave a note to say I'm sorry
Will that be enough to make you love me
If I tried my best to make you happy
Will you do your best to listen to me
-I'm Sorry [ Dan Erickson ]
A song that i think everyone should listen. Something that is more into our life. Thanks to Shaun, i'm attached to this song. It reminds me, sometimes, people let go when they are not supposed to. While some, hold onto when they need to let it go. Why? I wonder. We cry over things that are not meant to waste time on.
Well, Life's like that. Life is a series of pulls back and forth. You want to do one thing, but you are bound of something else. Somethings hurts you, yet you know it shouldn't. You take certain things for granted, even when you know you shouldn't. And, that's life.
* It's too late to turn back
Nina Nazliana
Sometimes when you think that everything is gonna be ok,
that's when all the shit happens.
One thing sure, friends are not forever.
I've felt all the heartaches in the world. Be it about life, love, or worst in friendships. All of it have make an impact on me. Making me so numb that i almost lost my feelings. But one thing sure, it has make me a stronger individual who care no shit about anyone else.
I used to think that friends are forever. I used to love someone more than myself. That's when i realize i'm losing myself real bad. I gave so much that in the end, i was still alone. I tried my best in the friendship, but yet again betrayal seems to be my friend instead. I trust so much that i was lied. I wonder why?
6 years of my life, i told myself, that everything was ok. But no. I lied to myself. It only took me 6 years for me to loose my happiness. All of it. So don't you ever talk or cry about something that I've cried long ago. One thing sure, what ever that happens, I have to stand back up again. That is why, i always tend to stay stronger than my usual strength.
Ive always told myself, people come and go in your life. Never should i be discouraged or feel upset. Look up, stand up, and move forward. Love myself more than I love others. Cause in the very end, whatever that I've been through with YOU, I dun want that to happen to anyone else. Leave me alone.
*Sometimes, it is better to be strangers.
Nina Nazliana
A good friend will tell you what you want to hear.
A true friend will always tell the truth.
A good friend seeks to talk with you about your problems.
A true friend seeks to help you with your problems.
A good friend will be there for you all through school.
A true friend will be there till the day you die.
A good friend will bail you out of prison.
A true friend will be sitting next to you saying
"damn that was fun!".
A good friend brings a bottle of wine to your party.
A true friend comes early to help you cook and stays late to help you clean.
A good friend hates it when you call after they've gone to bed.
A true friend asks you why you took so long to call.
A good friend wonders about your romantic history.
A true friend could blackmail you with it.
A good friend thinks the friendship is over when you have an argument.
A true friend calls you after you had a fight.
A good friend, when visiting, acts like a guest.
A true friend opens your refrigerator and helps himself.
A good friend has never seen you cry.
A true friend has shoulders soggy from your tears.
A good friend doesn't know your parents' first names.
A true friend has their phone numbers in his address book.
A good friend expects you to always be there for them.
A true friend expects to always be there for you.
A good friend is someone you enjoy hanging out with.
A true friend is someone you need.
Someone ever tell me that I'm his/her good friend. I felt good. And after that i kept wondering, what's the difference between good and the best till I found this. I no longer wants to be his/her good friend. This made me think and has made me realize that I'm pushing myself and trying to be at the best to someone who may not see me as their best. It hurts. Maybe cause i put too much effort in the friendship, when the someone is not appreciating my presence.
SOMEONE,
Don't you ever realize that i care for you so much?
Don't you know that I wish and hoped the best for you everyday?
- When ever you needed me, wasn't i there?
Wasn't I there to see you cry?
Wasn't I there to hear your cries?
Wasn't I there at all?
* I was there when you needed me. Where were you when I needed YOU?
Nina Nazliana
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Sometimes I asked myself,
What is the meaning of Love?
To care about someone's heart, body or health?
Or is it about the lust that you will serve?
One thing sure about my love story,
It is always dull and my pages are still very much empty.
My heart can no longer share the happiness,
Cause my heart needs time to cure first.
Why must we always part with the ones we care?
Instead of them, we have enemies to share.
Is this what we call love for someone?
Be it a friend, family, daughter or son?
I just hate the emotion of sadness,
Cause that's when our life felt the emptiness.
But Somehow that's when the meaning of love is tested,
Whether a happy ending or one's dream shattered.
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I ever asked a certain someone, whether he/she wants to go into a relationship. The most thing the person said was 'haven found the person i wan to commit to'. And the person continued saying that people these days go for looks and they give a lot of reasons to say No to the people who are not appealing to them.
I wonder why. Why do we take advantage of people who actually care and love us? Why do we not see it till the person is gone? Why do we regret at the very end? Why do we alway wants to make ourself feels good by trying to have the best? But eventually it doesn't last or worst, we don't even have a chance! And still. I wonder why.
* Love is not something that we can feel everyday other than Hurt.
Nina Nazliana
I was not myself this few days.
I don't know what actually i'm supposed to face.
I just can't be left sitting all alone,
Cos soon I'll be thinking about the piece of stone.
When i think about my future,
All I think is about sadness, death for sure.
Knowing a piece of stone with my name will be on top of me,
It will then reflect on my deeds and sins after all i've been.
Many questions is on my mind right now,
Will i end up burning in flame or smiling and end it with a bow.
Will people remember me cause of my kindness,
Or even worse, they end up giving me a curse.
But i know life is never easy nor is it hard,
I know I can't regret now cos i've been bad from the start.
But when i'm gone all i ever want is Peace,
Cos that's the only thing that my soul will be at ease.
When I'm gone don't even cry,
I'm not asking for sympathy but just a smile that i wanna see.
Look at me for the last time when i'm still lying on my bed,
Most importantly, remember me when i'm dead.
* Only Love and Death Change All Things.
Nina Nazliana
Relationships with Scorpio are always complicated, just like the person, their relationships are a series of extremes, they can even be downright moody for no apparent reason. Scorpios are known for their possessiveness and jealousy but on the other hand, they are extremely loyal.
Scorpios have an excellent memory and combined with an inability to let things go, they can hold a grudge against someone who did them harm forever, in fact a Scorpio rarely if never forgives and forgets. They will even go as far as get vengeance on the person.
On the other hand, they will always remember a kind gesture forever and repay it. Any kind selfless gesture done to a Scorpio will gain trust and respect which is extremely important to them in any relationship, either romantic or not.
The best advice is to be honest with a Scorpio friend and in return, you will gain an amazing friend you will never forget and who will be loyal to you and never make false promises. Their truthful and shocking sense of humor if different than that of any other zodiac sign and the Scorpio makes an amazing, powerful interesting friend that can be trusted.
I Am A Scorpio. And I Love Being One.
Love me, Believe me. Hate me, Leave Me.
Nina Nazliana
I used to think that i was strong. I used to think that's life is all about being rebellious. I used to think that smoking was cool. I used to think that I can be who I wanna be. I used to think that I was important. I used to think that Dreams are something that is true. And the most of all is that, I used to think that friends are forever.
Well, now, in this very moment, it seemed that everything that I said is something that is stupid and never possible. I just realize that I'm actually a weak soul who have done too many stupid things in life that i just don't realize. Worst, Someone once told me, I tend to ignore and hurt the person who loves me, and eventually loves the person who actually is ignoring me by doing something that I'm not supposed to.
This actually kept me thinking. Is it really my fault? For an individual, I just wanna make people around me feel the happiness and feel that they are wanted somehow. And I'm not asking anything for a return. But it's just that I felt in times people may misjudge me for something that I didn't mean to do or say.
For me, I just wanna be happy with the people whom I love, Even though when deep inside me, I'm hurt or sad. I know, I kept too many things inside me, and it's bugging me all the time. I just dunno who to tell. If only life was much easier. If only someone could just hear me out. If only someone understands me.
But yet again, it will always be another 'If Only'...
It's hurtful when too many things kept inside you. The worst is that you don't wanna say it out cause the feeling of wanting to be left alone and becoming a hero trying to solve the problems yourself. - And you know you can't even do it! It sucks. It hurts. But Life still have to move on!
And it seemed yesterday was the day that everything came trembling down. I lost my grandmother. I know, I may not be as close, but her loss seems to be affecting in a way or another. Looking at her and kissing her forehead for a last time kinda hurts me a lot. I pray that her soul will always be at peace.
This makes me realize that life is actually short. Life is full of unexpected things that will just make your life crazy. In one day, you will find your happiness, and in a second, it will just be your worst nightmare. And it make me realize how much i've actually hurt a lot of people in a way or another. Be it I did it in purpose or the other way round. And What if, one day my tomorrow never comes. I'll bet i'll regret and will be swearing at myself. But one thing sure, Life have to keep moving on.
I wanna change. I wanna live. I wanna cry. I wanna laugh. I wanna do things that i have not yet done. I wanna love. I wanna hate. Cause in the end, I wanna repent And I don't wanna die yet.
Nina Nazliana
